Today’s Weather: Gloomy and Dry with a Chance of Sunshine

With only seven weeks and one day to go until my scheduled c-section, I’m feeling a bit deflated today. Hmpf. For the past nine weeks or so, I’ve tried my best to stay positive, but, I am human and can’t be cheerful and happy all the time, right? Most of my current mood is probably hormonally influenced (I just love blaming pregnancy hormones for all of my woes). Also, I’ve been feeling less than 100% when it comes to my physical capabilities. Maybe it’s just my body’s way of telling me to finally take it easy after almost seven months of carrying a high-risk pregnancy. Who knows? Either way, I know that I’m feeling more tired than usual. I actually took a two and a half hour nap the other day. This is unheard of for me. But, I have to admit, it felt pretty great just sacking out on the couch snuggled up under my warm sherpa blanket while Clara caught a few Zs of her own. Now that I am done teaching for the semester and the cold weather has finally made its unwelcome appearance, I think I need to pencil some good quality naps into my daily routine. Once the baby gets here, I know that I’m never sleeping again. :0)

Also, I am just so uncomfortable in my own skin. And, I’m a little frustrated with the fact that I can no longer keep up the pace during my attempted five-mile runs any longer. They have turned into more of run/walk sessions. It stinks that even though I’m still very physically active (thanks to Lindsay Brin, my weekly yoga class and my almost daily runs/walks on the treadmill), I am still out of breath after walking up a flight of stairs. I guess there’s just not enough room for a 2 pound, 10 ounce baby and my internal organs. Sigh. And, to make matters worse, the skin on my hands and upper chest keeps getting drier and itchier. I’m sure that my obsessive hand washing has absolutely nothing to do with the dry, cracked skin that is now fighting for real estate with the multiplying bumps/blisters on all of my fingers — a side effect of the IVIG. I feel like the poor chap who found himself becoming a Prawn in District 9.

Okay, enough with the pity party. I’ve spent enough time griping about my pregnancy woes, which actually are very few and far between compared to those of other expectant mothers. All-in-all, physically, these last couple of weeks could have definitely been worse. Depending on her position, sometimes it feels as if baby girl is going to fall right out of me (sorry if this is TMI), but other times, she likes to sit up nice and high. I am sleeping like a rock at night and am lucky that I’m still able to work out, chase after Clara and give in to my urges to nest, which have definitely kicked into high gear lately. I actually spent a few minutes organizing the tea drawer in my pantry on Tuesday. It felt great. I can’t wait to tackle the basement!

Now onto the silver lining, as there always is one (at least in my little world). By now, many of you have probably seen the interview that I had with Barbara Morse-Silva from Channel 10 on Tuesday morning. The spot aired on Tuesday night at 5:30 and on Wednesday morning at 5 and 6. To see the interview in its entirety, please click here:  NAIT Interview. I must admit, although I don’t look too nervous on camera (at least in my humble opinion), I was a bit anxious that previous night and during the hours leading up to the interview. I had absolutely no idea what to expect. However, Ms. Morse-Silva made me feel very comfortable with her knowledgable and poignant questions. I simply had to tell my story and she and her easy-going and friendly camera man, Albert, did the rest.

Since conducting the interview, Taylor has teased me mercilessly for using our family and this condition to gain temporary fame. He has used the term “movie stah,” inflected with the perfect Rhode Island accent, on more than one occasion. Truth be told, when I decided to pursue this opportunity, I never once thought of it as a chance for me to get my 15, well more like five, minutes in the spotlight. I think if this were my motivation, I would have been much more nervous prior to the interview. To me, this was the perfect time (seeing as I’m currently pregnant with a NAIT baby) to take an unfortunate circumstance and reframe it in a more positive light. Just as this blog is a chance for me to spread the word about NAIT and to potentially help other NAIT parents, the tv appearance gave me a much wider reach — the number of people who have viewed the video far and wide is just so overwhelming, surprising and touching. Hopefully, someone will take the message I intended to send and use it to help others or to possibly identify other potential NAIT cases.

Who knows what will come from the interview, these blog entries or any other channel I decide to use in order to share my often simple-minded thoughts with the rest of Rhode Island, cyberspace and the world? All I know is that since embarking on this voyage to add to our family, I have felt the urge to share it with those who dare to listen and learn. Thank you for being a part of this journey — I’m looking forward to sharing with you the remaining seven weeks of this pregnancy and the months and years of frazzled thoughts yet to come…

As promised, I will leave you with my 29-week belly shot. Enjoy!

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7 thoughts on “Today’s Weather: Gloomy and Dry with a Chance of Sunshine

    • Thanks for your kind words, Wendy! I was very happy with the interview and hope that it helps us spread the word on NAIT. I appreciate you taking the time to read the blog each week. Hope all is going well for you! :0)

  1. Hi Jennifer! Each week I look forward to reading your blog! I am a teacher as well, and I feel like we have a lot in common! I am just one week away from my first treatment which will be done in the hospital. I am anxious and nervous because I feel like if the treatments go well and are successful, I can finally relax and enjoy my pregnancy. We recently found on on Christmas morning that we are having another boy! My son Mikey was born just one year ago with only 4,000 platelets, and thankfully no bleeds. Our full story is on the NAIT website under Schaller family. I just wanted to thank you for doing this blog and sharing your experiences because it has definitely helped me! The interview was great! I was able to forward it to a lot of friends and family that don’t understand what I am going through right now. I look forward to hearing about the safe arrival of your little girl!!!!!

    • Hi Rosanne!

      Thanks for your message. I’m so glad that things are going well for your and your pregnancy. And, congratulations on the good news — another little boy! Yeah! Please let me know if I can provide you with any other info regarding your treatments. I was a bit scared before the first one, but feel like and old pro now. And, you’re right, once I started my treatments, I began to feel more relaxed with my pregnancy. I’m still having a little bit of trouble accepting the fact that everything is going well so far, and probably won’t relax until my daugther is out of my body and in my arms. So horrible to think that our bodies just don’t want our babies — it’s a hard thing to accept and to live with. I’ll definitely check out your story on the NAIT website, am so happy that my blog is helping you and that you liked the interview. Thanks so much for reading and for your support — it makes things so much easier knowing that we’re not alone in this experience. :0)

      Jennifer

  2. Jenn,
    You look fabulous! I am impressed with your work-out ethic as I got no exercise during my second pregnancy. I think it’s great that you are sharing your experiences and touching others with your thoughtful words. All the best this year – and if you need to commiserate when you are recovering from a c-section while also caring for a toddler, I’m here! 🙂

    • Thanks for your kind message, Julie! I really appreciate your support. And, thanks for reading my blog. It has been a great outlet for me to vent my feelings and I know that I wouldn’t be coping as well without it. Hope all is well with your new addition! I’ll be sure to get in touch when I need to vent about c-section recover and caring for two!

  3. Hi Jennifer! Quick question, do you know the brand name of the IVIG that you are using? Has it been the same the entire time? I was just informed that they are using Gamunex….I’m hoping this is a good one!

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